I, like so many, am struggling to cope with the killing of Trayvon Martin and the trial of his killer. I am reading and reflecting on the many commentaries in an effort to make sense of it all.
I'm in scenarios
all the time in which primitive, exotic-looking me — six-foot-two, 300 pounds,
uncivilized Afro, for starters — finds himself in places where people who look
like me aren't normally found. I mean, what can I do? I have to be somewhere on
Earth, correct? In the beginning — let's say 2002, when the gates of "Hey,
Ahmir, would you like to come to [swanky elitist place]?" opened — I'd say
"no," mostly because it's been hammered in my DNA to not "rock
the boat," which means not making "certain people" feel
uncomfortable.
I mean, that is
a crazy way to live. Seriously, imagine a life in which you think of other
people's safety and comfort first, before your own. You're programmed and
taught that from the gate. It's like the opposite of entitlement.
The problem is,
I do have desires to go to certain places and do certain things and enjoy the
perks and benefits of being a person who works his arse off as much as I do. So
I got over my hang-ups of not wanting to be the odd guy in the room sometime
around 2007. It's been mixed results at best.
I tried to be innocuous but didn't know how. The more I thought about
how I moved, the less my body belonged to me; I became a false character riding
along inside it. I began to avoid people. I turned out of my way into side
streets to spare them the sense that they were being stalked. I let them clear
the lobbies of buildings before I entered, so they wouldn't feel trapped. Out
of nervousness, I began to whistle and discovered I was good at it. My whistle
was pure and sweet -- and also in tune. On the street at night, I whistled
popular tunes from the Beatles and Vivaldi's "Four Seasons." The
tension drained from people's bodies when they heard me. A few even smiled as
they passed me in the dark.
Staples, like Questlove, comes from the
position of being a large (over six feet tall) black man in a world that too
often deems any black man, woman or even a child as a scary Negro. And if anyone
doubts that black women and children fall into this category also, they haven’t
lived in my shoes nor in any pair that remotely resembles my shoes. Whether it is driving while black, reunioning
while black, or other WB (while black) incidents, too many black people face the perplexing, infuriating, heart-breaking,
debilitating, dangerous, and sometimes fatal task of addressing what scholar Jody
Armour labeled “negrophobia.”
Negrophobia is the notion that because of their perceived dangerousness,
an otherwise irrational fear of blacks might be justified in situations where
whites (or deemed whites—for as George Zimmerman reminds us, whiteness is frequently
situational, contingent, delegated and/or relative) take preemptive action such
as shooting to thwart a black attacker. This is the Trayvon Martin case in a
nutshell.
All too often, however, no amount of whistling will calm the fear of blackness. Because this is true, assertions that the Trayvon Martin case was “not about race” leave us with no real way talk about what happened. A man thought someone looked “suspicious,” called police, acted against police advice and followed the allegedly suspicious person, thereby provoking a fight, and then shot and killed the unarmed person. How does the story about initial suspiciousness or the subsequent fight make sense without viewing it from the lens of the discrediting stigma of blackness? It doesn’t—unless instead of whistling Vivaldi, you’re whistling Dixie.